So I applied for a special detail with my job . . . I got it. I am shocked I got it. It’s a pretty important position . . . I will
have lives as my responsibility. What
really amazes me is that the group of people I work for feel I am able to
handle all of this. WTF? As I think about it, I feel I can do
this. It will struggle in the beginning
but I don’t have any self doubt in myself.
Normally I am beating myself up with self doubt . . . I mean with a BIG
baseball bat. Not now. Am I growing up? Do I not know the full
impact of this position? What is going on?
My way of thinking is changing. I
think I’m embracing it too. Where is
this going? I think I am growing. Damnit!
I like being the mature teenager I have not evolved from yet . . . I
guess this is good. It’s that Law of
Attraction that I have been living in for the last 6 years. Now it’s out of control!
I work in uniform. About two months ago I was so hell bent on being out of uniform and not testing for my job as I annually do each year. Well the position I am in I am no longer in uniform, while doing the position and I am using my head for a change. I get to think and make decisions. Now I have to get into the same position and not test. Great goal I think. I’ve thought about this for so long that the thought became organic and part of me ~ amongst other things.
Just spittin a thought . . .
I work in uniform. About two months ago I was so hell bent on being out of uniform and not testing for my job as I annually do each year. Well the position I am in I am no longer in uniform, while doing the position and I am using my head for a change. I get to think and make decisions. Now I have to get into the same position and not test. Great goal I think. I’ve thought about this for so long that the thought became organic and part of me ~ amongst other things.
Just spittin a thought . . .
